gows: (statlerwaldorf)
We bought a travel trailer yesterday!!!!!

Drifting

Mar. 21st, 2021 05:11 pm
gows: (sensual)
Jesus. You wanna how fucked my time sense is right now?

I have lived in a ski town since December 2005. The ski calendar, economically - and often socially - speaking, sets the rhythm for the life and livelihoods of our town.

I *just* now looked up when the season is supposed to end. Because, in part, it doesn't *matter* to me anymore; I feel disassociated from society and find it difficult to interact in person with most people.

At the same time, I am hyper-reactive to any sense of loss. Often overprotective.  Bossy, definitely.  Both strongly attuned to potential danger - to the point of paranoia - and at other times totally blase about it.

This is a weird place to be.

gows: (vengeance)
Trump and Melania have tested positive for COVID-19.

I hope he suffers.  I hope he has nightmares for weeks, that the fatigue hits him like a ton of bricks.  I hope he wheezes and chokes and gasps for air.  I hope he shits himself while struggling to breathe, that he loses all sense of dignity.  I hope he has to be intubated and put on a ventilator.

I don't care if he dies.

On one hand, I hope he has a miserable, wretched next six weeks - long enough to watch the Republican party crumble to its knees - before his fucking heart explodes.

On the other, I hope he loses, survives, and has to go to trial for all of his crimes.  I want to see him fall.  I want to see him burn.

I don't care about the high road.  I hope he goes down and that the Republican party goes with him. Their unwavering support, blatant cronyism, and feckless willingness to put party before county.

Why?

In the name of the 7.31 MILLION Americans who have had this.  In the name of the 208 HUNDRED THOUSAND countrymen who have died.  In the name of over 2 MILLION people who have lost a direct family member, never mind friends or colleagues.

In the name of the American public, who have literally been lied to and gaslit and abused.  Who have been treated like the sacrificial lambs while he sits on his throne of gold, spewing bile and mocking the very people he has sworn to protect.

From Heather Cox Richardson today:
"On October 1, alone, we learned that a study of more than 38 million articles about the coronavirus pandemic between January 1 and May 26 published in English shows that Trump was 'likely the largest driver of… Covid-19 misinformation.' The Cornell University study found that 37.9% of misinformation mentioned Trump."

I hope he reaps what he sows.  I hope he suffers the consequences of his actions, of his hubris.

He had a fucking manual.  He threw it out the window because of his jealousy and insecurity regarding Obama.

Kushner had a plan.  And decided to withhold it, as the highest outbreaks at the time were states with Democratic governors.  He and the rest of the administration were willing to sacrifice the lives of any American in order to make the Democrats look bad.

As I wrote elsewhere (in response to some snitty bitch about taking the high road):

Trump has spent the last six months gaslighting and abusing the American public. He has refused to take this virus seriously, when it has killed over 208 HUNDRED THOUSAND Americans. That number is approaching WWII losses, which we will no doubt reach in a number of weeks. As a reminder, it took America FOUR YEARS to reach that number, including the losses at Pearl Harbor.

He was *literally* left a handbook on how to deal with a pandemic, but threw it out due to his jealousy of Obama. Kushner made the decision (with T's blessing) that since the highest rate of infection was initially in Democrat-govered states, that the virus would be allowed to run unchecked *in order to make Democrats look bad.* Trump *literally* sacrificed American lives in order to look good.

Trump knew MONTHS ago that this was a highly virulent disease. He literally *lied* to the American public about it, gaslighting the 2 MILLION people who have lost a direct family member.

Is it to much to ask that Trump reap what he has sowed? Is it too much to ask that he experience the consequences of his actions?

On behalf of everyone who has lost someone, on behalf of struggling long-haulers, of the self-employed who have lost their businesses, of the employees who have lost their jobs and their health insurance, of the people who have held the hands of their loved ones--and those who were not allowed to--I think that anger is a perfectly normal, human, and *healthy* response.

Fuck him.  Fuck that motherfucker.

There's concern that he's faking it, and I get that.  The White House doc released a statement agreeing, but we all know better than to trust this sheisty bunch.

I hope he suffers. 

Release the schadenfreude.

EDIT:  He's now being sent to Walter Reed, even though his symptoms are "mild."  Please, karma, have some justice.

One year.

Aug. 27th, 2020 11:35 am
gows: (sensual)
One Year

It's been a year.
One year
Since you stepped out
Stepped off
  the roof
Stepped over the line.

I read the police report.
I know the rope broke.
I know you fell,
After.

My Icarus.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for the solanine crosswinds,
your Potential
s c a t t e r e d
in
bits and
pieces
of broken feathers.
The leaves of an artichoke--
A bite for many,
But a meal for none.

Your heart was that of an artichoke, too.
Hidden, covered with a crown of deceptively soft thorns--
far fiercer-looking than in feeling--
Not sweet
Nor sour
Or bitter
But unctuous,
Rich and yielding.
Punctured and speared easily
Or spread wide and laid open,
Quartered for another's feast.

Branches snap and the trunk begins to wither.
You surround me now.
I carry you with me,
Daily.

It is not a burden.
gows: (statlerwaldorf)
I created this DW journel three years ago. I finally imported everything from LJ today.

It's been a crazy two+ years.

( 2018 )

( 2019: the first trimester )

( 2019: the second trimester )

( Then came August. )

( The winds of November came early. )

( The remainder of winter )

( In the time of plague )

Ugh. 2020 is so fired, but the last few years haven't been easy either.
gows: (statlerwaldorf)
The Denali AK line of credit is now closed.

Now I can get on with my life without any more traces of him.



It is not without irony that I note it took me longer to get free and clear of this fucking marriage than I spent in it.
gows: (sensual)
absolut.com/remix ?

“Sunshine”
Words written by Yukimi Nagano

You were my sunbeam when skies are dark
You got me flying way beyond
‘Cause I’ve been wandering and feeling lost
Now, like whirlwind, you put a spell on me

Have been dragging my feet along sleepless everday
I couldn’t figure out a thing
Until your lightbeam came crashing in
Waited five seconds, soaked in some magic, shoot across
To transform my every loss, but then you can storming

You were my sunbeam when skies are dark
You got me flying way beyond
‘Cause I’ve been wandering and feeling lost
Now, like whirlwind, you put a spell on me

Your electric ways had me right then
Me and my ghost of the past, get him tied down
Waited five seconds, soaked in some magic, come across
To transform my every loss, but then you can storming in

You were my sunbeam when skies are dark
You got me flying way beyond
‘Cause I’ve been wandering and feeling lost
Now, like whirlwind, you put a spell on me
gows: (welding)
80 degrees at 2:15 pm today.

This is gonna be one long, hot summer.
gows: (statlerwaldorf)
9 yummy breakfast ideas

30 sammich ideas

monthly house-mucking list . . . although I should modify it for farming, too.
gows: (firey)
7 years this month.

I miss you, my bold friend.

*snicker*

Jan. 15th, 2012 01:13 pm
gows: (statlerwaldorf)
I just saw a FB ad for a car detailing service. The one line it had said, simply,

We clean it all



. . . is it a bad thing that my immediate mental response was "CLEAN ALL THE THINGS!"
gows: (sensual)
The only way out is through.

-- [livejournal.com profile] figmentj
gows: (sensual)
Anne McCaffrey has been one of my favorite authors since childhood. I stopped reading her newer work at about 1998 or so, as it seemed she was just mining a lot of her older worlds without putting much effort into the actual writing. But her earlier work could--and did--bring tears my eyes. She wrote about human, flawed women as heroes and role models, and I loved them fiercely, from Menolly to Lessa to Killashandra Ree.

Anne McCaffrey shaped science fiction and fantasy on a genre-wide scale, affecting more than gender perceptions. She was the first woman to win a Hugo, IIRC, and touched lives far and wide. She is one of the few authors I ever wished to meet in my life; I was just thinking of her a couple of nights ago. Even though I never met her in person, I was blessed to have her--and her characters--in my life. It has been the richer for it.

Gaslighting

Nov. 9th, 2011 06:20 am
gows: (sensual)
A fantastic article on how we, as a culture, belittle women's emotional reactions. IT happens to men, too, but I know far more women that have internalized this.

( Text in full )
gows: (firey)
I think these are awesome. Especially Rainbo. :D
gows: (sensual)
Tired of all women's Halloween costumes being "sexy"? (And yes, those quotation marks are there for irony.)

Check THESE bitches out. :D

And if you've got a little dog, too? Go here, in particular.
gows: (vengeance)
It's amazing how much better I feel after whacking the hell out something with a sharp, heavy cleaver. :)

Moar art

Oct. 15th, 2011 11:08 pm
gows: (welding)
Wow. Wow.

I would LOVE to see this out in the desert sometime.

Wow.
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